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Here I sit...unsure of how to start or what to say.

Grandpa: He passed away early Saturday morning. It makes me sad to type that...it makes me sad that he is gone...but after seeing how he was struggling on Friday night, I am grateful that he is no longer suffering.

Benefit: Verd's benefit went very well! It wasn't nearly as "hard" as I thought it was going to be...it felt very much more a "celebration" of his life, rather than a time for mourning. I was already feeling emotional from my grandpa's death, but seeing the community rallying around my SIL's family put some happiness in my heart.

Mother's Day: Busy, fun, fattening! Brunch with everyone, then supper and no holds barred kickball, which ended up being more of a "mud ball" game after the day of rain we had! The sun came out just long enough for us (and by "us" I mean everyone minus me...I was feeling lazy) to get in a game and just long enough for the kids (and Grandpa) to get good and muddy!

Now, here I sit. Cozied into bed (having been excused from bedtime duty--'cuz it's Mother's Day, dontchaknow!)...blogging and playing Words With Friends!

I hope you all had terrific Mother's Days! G'night!


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  1. My condolences on the passing of grandpa but you know now his suffering has ended and he is now in a better place.

    Hope you had a nice mothers day, glad you got part of the evening to relax. Take care, God bless

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  2. I am so very sorry for your loss!

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  3. So sorry for the loss of your grandpa :-(
    Happy Mother's Day

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  4. So sorry for your loss. God be with you during this time.

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  5. So sorry about your grandpa. We will be praying for you and your family. Happy Mother's Day from GA

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  6. I'm sorry to hear about your grandpa. But I'm glad he was such a joy in your life. That's a blessing that some people never have!
    I hope you're hanging in there after such a rough year!
    Thoughts and prayers are with you!

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  7. I am so sorry for your loss sweet girl. This has been one heck of a year for you. Know that I am praying for you and your family and I am here if you need to talk or if I can help in any way. (((HUGS)))

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  8. I'm so sorry about the loss of your grandpa.

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  9. Your family is in my prayers.

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  10. So sorry for your loss. But he is in a better place now that has no pain. :)

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  11. I'm so sorry Mama M. I lost my grandpa in January, after being his caretaker for 4 years. My heart goes out to you and your family right now.

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