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I'm writing this because, through this platform, I've discovered that writing is therapy for me. It helps me to clear my mind and get all my thoughts out and declutter my brain. So, here goes...
2011 can stop sucking at any minute. YOU HEAR THAT 2011?!!! STOP SUCKING!!
With tomorrow's benefit looming, I think I'm feeling a little raw with knowing the reason why we are even attending a benefit. Knowing that, most days, Verd's death still doesn't feel real. Knowing that my husband and his siblings and parents are still struggling...knowing that tomorrow is, likely, going to be hard.
2011 has been one thing after another, and while all the "other" stuff is piddly compared to losing Verd, it still sucks. And it's stressful. We lost Verd, I lost my co-worker, Belle and her appendicitis, and now my grandpa.
Then, today, I found out news about my grandpa that, while not really unexpected, is still hard to hear. He was transferred to a nursing home on Wednesday...and I found out, today, that he will probably never go back home. To his lake home, that is. Barring any miracles, the only "home" he will get to leave to, is his eternal home.
It so hard seeing my grandpa, who was once a grumpy old curmudgeon, who loved to tease kids and give them heck constantly, so...so dependent. So unlike the grandpa I know.
I'm struggling today...I'm also PMS'ing, so it could be part of why I feel like an emotional wreck, but this sucks.
Okay. I'm done now. I think.
Onto regularly scheduled programming...
UPDATE: The Mr. and I went to see my grandpa tonight. After talking with my mom, who had been up to see him earlier today, I had this nagging feeling I just needed to see him. I wasn't prepared for what I saw.
He is struggling. He is now just getting "comfort cares". He is very much worse off than when I last saw him. Please pray for his comfort...I don't think he has much time left here on earth. Thank you for your kind words and prayers...