Oh man, oh man, oh man...I'm feelin' like a "terrible, horrible, no good, very bad" mom. Please bear with me, I've just gotta get this out. My teenager, aka my "guinea pig", is really testing my patience. Really. This boy has got me totally on edge!
Because I have never done the teenage years before, (I mean, you know, as a parent) it's hard for me to know when this "phase" is gonna be over (and I'm praying it is just a phase)...and I'm hopin' it's darn soon! He is a pretty dang good kid, what gets me is his tone of voice, and when I correct him, I get "what did I say". I find myself repeating over and over again, "It's not what you say, it's how you say it". And what I'm even more upset with, is that I find myself following suit. By gum, I'm regressing back to my teenage years! And, gee, what a fabulous example that is! Arrrggggghhhhh, help me!
We have always found that after Big A. gets back from his weekend with his dad, he's lippy to beat heck...usually it straightens out quickly with boundaries, but this time...it's not getting better! And to make it worse, I feel annoyed by him. That is an awful feeling, I feel horribly guilty. He has always been an argumentative kid, he'd "argue with a stop sign" (in his own words!)...we say he'll make a great lawyer someday. But, he doesn't know when to not argue. Seems like everything is a battle..."Big A., it'll take us about two hours to get there."
"No it won't, it says it takes 1 hour and 45 minutes."
"Big A., I've got crusty boogers."
"No you don't, they're runny."
It just goes on and on.
I'm praying, and I try not to pray for someone else to change, I always try to pray for change within myself...you know, understanding, patience, knowledge. I want to enjoy our time together, I don't want to be always snippy and anticipating a challenge.
Please, Lord, grant me the patience, grace, understanding and knowledge to be a good parent. Please help me lead by example and not follow suit with bad behavior. Please, Lord, walk along beside me as I parent through these treacherous times and guide me in my parenting. Amen.