Last week, life fell apart on us.
husband's absolutely amazing brother, Jared, passed away suddenly and
unexpectedly, leaving behind a beautiful young wife and 6 kids. Jared
was a life force all his own...his silly antics, giant heart, and
happy-go-lucky spirit was contagious and you couldn't help but love the
Why is it that the good guys are taken from us too soon?
last week has been a roller coaster of emotions; from endless tears to
laughter and back again. Just when I'm feeling strong, I get a hug or an
offer of condolences or a sweet email and the tears start to flow all
the path of grief is miserable...it is heart breaking and exhausting
and gut wrenching...and it is unimaginable to have to walk this walk
again. Just 6 years ago we were reeling from the sudden death of my
husband's oldest brother. This feels far to familiar to have to deal
when I started my resolutions posts and I talked about how the start of
a new year terrifies me? That ever since Verd died, I've had a fear of a
New Year because you never know what that year will bring? This is what
I was talking about. Life can change so quickly...it can go from being
so wonderfully imperfect to absolutely soul crushing, heart breaking
awfulness so quickly that you are left in a dark hole of confusion.
Like I said in that New Year's resolution post, I want to say that I will continue to choose joy over fear but let's be honest and real and raw for a second.
I. AM. TERRIFIED.
You guys, fear and sorrow have a hold so tight on my heart right now that it seems unthinkable to be able to choose joy.
hard and hold your loved ones close, my friends. And please pray for
strength and peace for Jared's wife, kids, and all of us left with a
giant Jared sized hole in our hearts and in our lives. He was one of the
This isn't fair.